So this week my oldest baby started school. And I don’t know how I feel about it. I’m excited for her to be starting a new journey, the next chapter of her life. But I’m also said that she’s grown and leaving me and nervous about it all.

Will she make friends, will she be okay, is she going to be bullied, will she be a bully. So many worries and so much excitement.

We got her uniforms over the holidays and her shoes. Made sure her bag and lunch box were ready. But none of it seemed real. And now reality’s hit. Early mornings, school run, it’s a whole new crazy experience for us both.

I hate that in this day and age we have to worry about bullying so much. I mean I know bullies are nothing new, but in today’s world with social media and everything else there’s no escape from it. You can’t just leave it all school it follows you home. And while she’s only just started school it’s the one thing that is always at the back of my mind.

I am so scared that she will likely experience it in some way. I wish I could protect her from it.

I feel like even though we spend the summer holidays and the weeks leading up to the first day of school preparing we still don’t feel fully prepared. It’s such a huge step. And for me it was hard. Letting go of my baby who is now a big school girl, who has been with me almost every day for the last 5 years. Handing her over to the teachers who she will learn so many new things from.

She’s been there two days now and it still doesn’t feel real. But reality is I am a school mum now, I have a child in school. How did that even happen? Where did the time go!? It’s making me wish I could wind the clock back and slow time down. But it’s also making me cherish the time I have with my kids. Enjoying them more now because one day they really won’t need us, they will be off on their own in the world. It’s such a crazy thought.

What I wouldn’t give to be a fly on the wall in her class room. To see what she’s doing all day, watch her making friends and learning lots of new things.

I’ll just be over here looking through her baby photos and crying because my baby’s all grown up.


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